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Oh my research. Oh my master.

In searching of research supervisor. Full of attempt and time and brain and energy consuming. I don't like to wait, I don't like to juggle, I don't like to feel anxious, I don't like to irrationally feel scare and worry, I don't like to wait for no good news, I don't like to feel "rejected". Oh! So many "don't likes" linger in my head and oh it's so disturbing, and annoying.
Bugger!
The thing is I have the interest in these particular area, so I tend to look for the persons related to the area and not giving a thought on other area. It was kind of risky, though. But you can't just do things that you don't like, out of interest, right? I don't know about others, but it's just me. This is supposed to be something that I will be working on for a certain long period which might take years, I kid you not. I always want to indulge and relish and focus on my task. Interest is the main thing I believe in order to keep the momentum on, kicking and alive. That's it!
Think it will be easier if you have no particular area of interest thus you can just accept whatever been suggested to you. Hmm.. Nah!

Why is it so hard?

Well okay there's no fun if everything come as easy, like you can't expect the luck fall from the sky rolling towards you and tadaaa!! Crap. There is no such thing.

Okay, wake up then. And keep on trying. If, really, by any chance, I have the "luck" in antenna kind of stuff, then will it be. InsyaAllah. Be positive!


Happy holiday, peeps.
xoxo


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