Sunday, November 15, 2015

Happy 5th birthday Sara Hana


Happy birthday sayang. You are 5! But no matter how old are you, you will always be my little girl and my no.1. Mama ❤️ you wholeheartedly. I pray that Allah will protect you, will grant you with success in life, in this world and hereafter, grant u the best of health, the bountiful prosperity, a blessed long-happy-meaningful-life, the smooth journey, and that Allah will bless u and guide your steps forever. I pray that you will grow up to be a wise person, amanah and among the greatest person during your time. I pray that Allah will grant you the greatest Syurga tanpa dihisab. Aamiin ya rabbal 'alamin.

Tau tak Sara ni anak yang baik. Rajin. Bijak. Manja. Kakak yang penyayang. Adib is such a lucky person to have you as a sister. And we are indeed very proud to have you as a child. You have all the good values and qualities gifted from Allah.

Thank you sayang from bringing such a joy into our (read mama ayah) life and my heart.

Thank you sayang sebab selalu sayang mama.

Thank you sayang rajin tolong mama.

Thank you sayang sbb memahami mama.

Always remember, Mama & ayah kasih sayang Sara.

Happy 5th birthday Sara
InshaAllah we will celebrate many more birthday together. 

Yours truly,
Mama Suhana
Sunday, 0204
Location: disebelah sara n adib yg sedang tido ^_^

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Siblings ❤️ [read:love]

Alahai melting ❤️ (insert love love love emoji)
Tabarakallah anak2 mama Sara & Adib

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Nak update sikit je

Ah title pun dah tahapehape

1. Sara's bday is just around the corner. Friday ni she will be celebrate her bday at school for the 2nd time. Last year dah. Cake tema hi-5. This year around she requested a Hello Kitty theme cake. Layan je. Knowing her, a bigg fan of HK. So i ordered her cake from Lynn_babycake from instag. Will pickup the cake tomorrow (Thursday) in Bangi around 8:30 pm

2. So ysterday, in conjunction with here bday we went to ioi to shop for party pack for her bday. budak skrg ni kemain, birthday je nak kena ada party pack la goodies la haish mcm2. I still remember during my yesteryears kalau kawan ajak kita pegi bday party kat rumah dia mesti kita yang bawa hadiah. beli hadiah kat kedai runcit je pun balut dengan kertas minyak. pencil sebatang pun jadi. hehe. how time flies. and zaman pun berubah. sigh.

3. And still, her bday. Tadi tghari me and le hubs ni went shopping for the ITEMS inside party pack. beli air, jajan sikit.Tu je la pun.

4. Adib dah start his solid food for 3 weeks tak silap. since he's 6months la. started with apple puree (checked ok), carrot pureer (checked ok) and now tgh try sweet potato puree. Haritu ada la 2 hari bagi dia bubur kosong+ebm. poo poo ada sedikit liat but still ok. no major issue. Next month (7m) boleh la kot start add vege in bubur. Suka makan si kecik ni. Pandai dah berebut sudu dgn kakak/mama. sibuk je dia nak suap jugak hehe. Comel.

5. Today remarks my starting day of WRITING mode. Means harini baru start betul2 tulis; abstratc, chapter 3. Chap 1 and 2 tu nanti2 la. I think it is easier to start with result and discussion. Tapi saya start method dulu la sbb design semua kat methodology tu. Pastu terus je sambung result. Easier that way, I guess. Its my way afterall.

6. So, haa yang ni nak kena tulih besaq2 ni. Nak bagi masuk dalam subconscious mind. Ha gitu.







7. Ok la tu je. Busy ni. Bai.

Thursday, November 5, 2015



Write up!
Let's start. No more dilly-dally.
Your submission is due on December.

Start counting days. For the sake of 70,000 words.


May Allah ease my writing journey and grant me success. and a scroll.

Believe in yourself.

Jom tulis
Ok bai

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Oh antenna

Its today!
Pray for the best
Hopefully the measurement result will be in a good agreement with simulation result.
Dah habis fikir dah ni mcm mana nak design
Letih sangat dah ni
I just want to get it over and done with. Thats it.
Ya Allah pls make it easy for me. 
Ya Allah pls grant me with the success 
Ya Allah. Help me

Antenna pls be good to me

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Had her ear pierced! And more..

I have to blog about this. So that when Sara read this (i hope she eventually will when she's grow up) she knows that she had her ear pierced when she is only 5! Yes. Very young at age. Even yours truly had her ear piercing at 20yrs old, i guess. Couldnt really recall but I am pretty sure I had it during my uni time at Sg. Wang Plaza to be exact. Dah besar baru ada the guts untuk pierce kat telinga. Haha. Talking about me being chickened out, lol. 
So Sara, there you are. Yes u had a little sob right after the process but they only lastrrr for few minutes and then you were okay and all smiled. Proud of you my brave little girl. 

So Adib had his follow up check up with his Paeds, Dr Afifah of KPMC yesterday and alhamdulillah the result was good, except he had lost around 200gram. He is now 6.7kg, compared to 6.9kg last week (before admitted on 5/10/15). Aim for next check up is 7kg. InshaAllah. Adib, mama doa Allah will grant to the best of health. Same goes to Sara. And everyone of us. Aamiin.

Nothing much today. Pagi tadi after bfast we send abah off to bus station at jalan reko and off we went to ioi city mall. Dah lama kot tak hit the mall. We had lunch at usual place, Little Penang and Sara had 2 rounds of carousel ride after train ride. Sama je aktiviti kami setiap kali pegi ioi tu haha. Nothing fancy. Hehe. Pastu tapau some roti kopi at pappa roti and headed home. I rasa tak sampai 3 jam kot dekat sana. 

Ok lah. Til then. Happy sunday people! Daa.

Mama SaraAdib

Friday, October 9, 2015

Thank you Allah

Learned these tenets from my lil one today. 
It feels like a 'pang' on my face that wakes me up somehow. 
She said, 
Show me
1. Courtesy
2. Integrity
3. Perseverance
4. Self-control
5. Indomitable spirit

With ur guidance O'Allah, I am so blessed!

Again, thank you Allah.
For sending me 'malaikat kecil' ini. I am beyond thankful. She makes me a person that I wanted to be. She saved me from astray, far from you. She saves me whenever I feel lost. She gives me hope whenever I am hopeless. She's the one who took my hand to the righteous path. She's always there for me, abide with me. 
She; is my little girl. 
She; is my beloved daughter.

Terima kasih sayang. For giving me a new hope, a new breathe, a new determination.
Terima kasih anak mama. For giving me strength thro the hardest time.
Terima kasih sayang mama. For being there for me, thro thick and thin. 
You are only 5 but, i owe you a lot! Really a lot til i lost count and think i could not repay.

Mama sayang Sara. Sangat. I dont know how to describe it. There's no such word to describe you, sayang. You are very special, in fact too special for me.
And sometimes, I think i no deserve to be your mother. And i think I am not good enough to be your mother.
But NO! I would not say so. Never. Because we are made for each other, to COMPLETE one another. Yes. We'll stick together. InshaAllah.

Ya Allah. Terima kasih atas kurniaan-Mu yang sangat berharga ini. Di saat aku hilang arah, Allah hantarkan petunjuk buatku melalui anak kecil ini. Allahu Akbar. Ya Allah, kau berikanlah kesihatan, kebahagiaan, perlindungan dan keselamatan yang terbaik buat anak-anakku. Jadikan lah mereka anak2 syurga. Panjangkanlah usia mereka. Jadikanlah mereka orang yang kau redhai dan kau kurniakan nikmat. Masukkan lah mereka ke dalam syurgamu tanpa dihisab.
Amiin ya rabb.

Mama sayang Sara
Mama sayang Adib
Mama sayang anak-anak mama

Thursday, October 8, 2015

One of this moment

I feel lost
So lost
And afraid
I dont know where to start
I dont know where to go
I dont know what to do
I dont know how to react
I dont know what to respond
I am still afraid
I am still traumatized

Ya Allah please guide me
I am so weak i couldnt even speak
I feel so numb
And dumb
And useless

Of a black moment in your life

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Adib, broncio vs rsv

Alhamdulillah after 3 days in Kpmc ward Adib dah boleh discharge this afternoon. Alhamdulillah syukur sangat. Intially he was diagnosed with brochitis but after some sample test performed by his Paed, it was actually RSV; respiratory synctial virus.
Here's some info with regard.

Credit to google. Hehe.

RSV is the most common germ that causes lung and airway infections in infants and young children. Most infants have had this infection by age 2. Outbreaks of RSV infections most often begin in the fall and run into the spring.

The infection can occur in people of all ages. The virus spreads through tiny droplets that go into the air when a sick person blows their nose, coughs, or sneezes.

You can catch RSV if:

  • A person with RSV sneezes, coughs, or blows their nose near you.
  • You touch, kiss, or shake hands with someone who is infected by the virus.
  • You touch your nose, eyes, or mouth after you have touched something contaminated by the virus, such as a toy or doorknob.
RSV often spreads quickly in crowded households and day care centers. The virus can live for a half an hour or more on hands. The virus can also live for up to 5 hours on countertops and for several hours on used tissues.

The following increase the risk for RSV:

  • Attending day care
  • Being near tobacco smoke
  • Having school-aged brothers or sisters
  • Living in crowded conditions
So there it is. 

So as per advised by paed, adib have to be warded (best option) and take the nebulizer 3 hourly for 24 hours then continues to 4 hourly for another 24 hours + percussion sess with the physiotherapist as his lungs and phlegm were not cooperative huhu. Just this morning paed loosen the neb period to 6 hourly and she also gives us 3 options; which is very typically dr afifah and thats why we like her :-). We chose to discharge of today and continue with inhaler at home until friday. And come back for a follow up on saturday. Yay! Finally alhamdulillah. So overall, 14x neb, 3x physio. Tapi adib ni active je. Takde pun demam n nangis. But he's a bit crancky sometimes perhaps he's bored to just stay indoor. Ye la sape tak bosan kan. Hehe.

And oh he's awake now. Till later.

Bersama peneman setia; kakak sara

Its you adib. Yeah.

Haha this is funny. This was taken by someone; apparently he is a doctor here while 3 of us are downstairs waiting for Adib to meet the physiotherapist. 

Thursday, October 1, 2015

afebrile soon kiddos!

So my two kids are down with fever and flu and cough. 3 in 1 combo package. Sara has been taking 2-days off from school and today I have to tumpangkan dia at babysitter's house. Adib has started coughing too and  I can hear some phlegmy sound when he coughs. So, I have these deep thoughts, discussed with MM and decided that I am going to take a-half-day off today to take Sara to doc (if she's still feverish) and look after 'em at home. I can work from home instead. No harm. I just feel uneasy to send my kids to school / babysitter when they are unwell. I always wanted to take care of my sick kids on my own, at home. idk, I am like that. Being the mother, I am sure we know our kids pretty well right. Besides, feverish kids normally a little cranky sometimes. Macam kesian kan. I cannot lah.  
Anyway, I will try percussion technique for Adib tonight if he's still coughing with phlegm.
So, ok then. It is well-nigh lunch time. I better off to tapau some foods for lunch and later go fetch the kids. Already miss them!