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Hari ini tak gembira langsung OK. I hv so many things running in my head. I hate it so bloody darn much. On top of that, had a huge raw with someone. Grumpiness that never seems to end. Until now. I don't know what goes wrong, whom and where. I have no idea. I am very much upset and dissapointed that I can't barely hold the tears.

God. I hate myself for being this way, but I just can't help it. I need to know. I want to know. I feel like I am a psychotic paranoia. I don't know why. It is just..there. I hate myself for being this way. This is so not me. I am truly aware that I have gone far beyond my normal own self.

So that's it. I'm no longer the supportive/sporting/open minded sweetheart, who would just sit there and listen about other girls. Gone are those days.

Now I found that its hard to trust anyone. No one. No freaking one!

God please help me find a way to mend this broken heart. A good cry that heals, is what I really need.

awak.. i hope to cling to u..itsumo, itsumademo..

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  1. AnonymousSeptember 22, 2008 at 5:53 AM

    moshi moshi hana chan..genki jyanai mitai ne..ren ai no mondai ?hehe.. tanoshii jikan wo sugoshite ne!

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  2. AnonymousSeptember 22, 2008 at 5:55 AM

    owh..house mate yori

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